Dot by dot

I bleed black and blue
I’ve got a rose garden on my chest
Crimson flowers growing on a cotton white dress

There’s a river on my left arm
I can’t contain its course
I’ll show you mine, you show me yours

Dot by dot
Dot by dot
Dot by dot
Drop by drop
Time’s still just passing by

Tick tock
Tick tock
Time’s been cursing me since day one
Every second that passes
Is another bit of sand inside my mouth

I can’t breathe
Time drowns me instead of heal

There’re too many monsters inside my head
I can’t even count all of them
They run and run
Wild like the animals they are
It hurts having to carry them all at the same time

People keep pushing me
They say it’s motivation
They say it’ll be worth the while
Honestly, it only feels like an unfair fight

I just want to shout
To the ocean
To the skies
Scream until my lungs make no more sound

I’m driving crazy for playing a game I wasn’t taught the rules
They throw the dices
They’re watching me
They still dictate my every moves

I’ve already learnt:
If you want to escape
You must break everything apart
So burn me like paper
Toss me like trash

I want to feel that way again
Can you make me feel alive again?

Put flames on my skin
Breath in my lungs
I’m gasping for air
I’m aching for you

Give me more than this saddening routine
You can cause me pain
As long as it brings me life
Let’s make a deal
Make worth it every second of my fall